The Beginning of All Beginnings
Seeking the heart of God – Living the gracious life – Areta and The One (the Emzahdeah)
– An introduction to Heaven and Hodos Alea – In the beginning (singularity) – A-Z
particles – The beginnings of life and creation – The streams of intelligence –
The symmetry of God – Innocent spirit children must live the mortal life – The power
1 By what means shall I write of things eternal? How shall I make known to you the
mysteries which come from God? For in me did The One and Areta together make known
the birth of Heaven’s glory, causing that I should see with my eyes and hear with
my ears, and touch with my hands the beginning of Hodos Alea.
2 What words, therefore, shall I place herein which would give rise in you of that
far more nobler self which did leap forth from the soul of God? For words alone prove
pale and weak, being in their nature as thin and passing shadows which would but
lead us home again.
3 For the things which flow from God are greater than all your dreams together,
proving themselves beyond the imaginings of prideful men; for things unseen do the
learned mock, and in constant sophistries would they make to appear as foolish, the
things of greatest worth.
4 Guard well, therefore, your soul within through faith and steadfast yearning;
for the things which are real do come from God, while yet the things of this world
are made dim and quickly passing.
5 If then you would take to your heart the things which come from God, then gird
yourself with faith and hope; having your soul fixed on things eternal, and in your
mind prove steadfast and most determined.
6 For such wonders as God would give into your keeping would lesser men steal away,
to cast in heaps of smoking ruin the sum of all your dreaming, speaking well deceitful
words which would rob you of that greater portion.
7 Seek not, therefore, the counsel of unbelievers, neither stand you in the midst
of prideful men, nor walk you side by side with those who would mock and make ridicule
the things which come from God.
8 For such as these are without root or place, being themselves most uncertain and
ever doubtful, being cast about within the mind and ever drifting, going from one
opinion unto the next, being themselves lost and filled with shadows.
9 But seek you only the heart of God and in their counsel stand most resolved and
fully knowing. For what good is the sum of all your strength if you have not faith
besides; and of what value is all your learning if you know not the soul within,
or the place from which you come?
10 Open wide, therefore, the doors of your heart, and I will speak; make ready the
ear and mind together, and I will pour into the very soul of you the things which
come from God; and if you shall believe with all your heart, nothing doubting, then
shall there be born within you some inward calm filled with knowing, causing that
there should be in all your words and deeds that gentle goodness filled with grace.
11 For if you would live your life in joy and light, then is grace most fully needful;
for in that inward grace are all hardships made most endurable, to make as still
and fully calm the soul within, even in the midst of troubles.
12 Know then that if you would live the gracious life, then be you strong and firmly
fixed in holding to the things of God; for that inward grace of which you seek is
first born of all your faith, being itself sustained through such hopes as do live
most constantly within you;
13 Causing that there should be found in you a place of refuge within the soul where
adversity is given no place or power to make as dark the joy within; neither can
any doubt rush in unawares to trouble the heart and soul together.
14 Be you, therefore, most attentive and fully knowing: For grace is made that outward
showing of an inner calm; and if it should be that you are possessed of it, then
shall the troubles and perplexities of life fall harmlessly round about you, causing
that there should flow from out of the depths of you a kindly word and a gentle deed,
to make as still in every man and every woman the storms which rage about.
15 Gird then your heart and mind, and be you eager in seeking out the greater portion;
for now would I reveal to you the things which no man or woman knows, having come
from the soul of God.
16 For The One and Areta did cleave together midst love and fiery passions, spilling
into each the other a fullness of affection filled with yearning and desire, proving
to each through kiss and gentle touch the depths of their devotion;
17 Declaring to each their sweet surrender, being called itself the Emzahdeah; for
in their love did they yield to each the fullness of the heart and soul;
18 To bring as gifts before the altar a kind regard whereby they might fulfill the
desires of each the other with love exceeding, being themselves without limitations
19 For together were they as one God, being united through the Oneness of their
souls; for in this Emzahdeah did each surrender the demands of the self, to find
in the loving of each other the only thing worthy of desiring or fully needed;
20 Causing that The One should speak to his Beloved, saying: “Come, my Love, and
let us be as God together, both male and female, most strongly bound in love and
true devotion; for in you alone am I complete, even as you do find completeness in
21 Let us, therefore, be fully bound midst all our love and life together, being
ourselves that endless fount from which all good things must flow, causing that we
should draw from the depths of all our love this Heaven which we would make.
22 For all I am give I to thee, to be for you that truest Love which dwells within
your dreams, to place in you a song to sing; for in the bosom of forever shall I
love you always, to see in you the sum of my desiring.”
23 And Areta did fairly swoon in the arms of her Beloved; and she spoke with tender
words into his ear, saying: “Yes, my Love, let us be forever one, to draw from our
many passions the foundations of Heaven’s glory.
24 For in this kingdom which we shall make, will all good things come alive, to
stand itself supreme forever, being ever attended by life and love, grace and beauty,
hope and joy, even worlds without end.
25 Let us then begin anew to create for ourselves this heavenly place; for such
powers as I possess shall I share most joyfully with you, my Love; for in the world
of the First Power did you strive continually and with faith to bring forth the fullness
of my design.
26 Be you, therefore, willing to stand as equal beside me, being one in me and I
in you, to build in each a fullness of the other, causing that in all things together
shall we most equally share in the building of this happy kingdom which we shall
27 For in power and grace shall we prove equal to each other, to draw from our souls
together the foundations of some greater glory filled with light and endless joy,
being dressed within and without by a holy communion.
28 Let us determine through careful counsel the way which we should go; for here
beside this living stream shall we most sweetly ponder, to fashion from our heart’s
desire a multitude of loving children.
29 These shall we fashion through the loving of our souls within the golden stream;
for the stream of which your spirit is fashioned is made of an absolute and living
substance, being themselves most separately knowing in the ways of life, being intelligent
in purpose and design.
30 And in the loving of you within the flowing light did I fashion for your soul
a spirit body like my own; and in like manner shall we fashion from our souls together
the beginning of our seed.
31 These shall we cause to follow straightly in our path, to become through some
eternal progression even like unto ourselves; and this path to exaltation shall we
call Hodos Alea.
32 For in small and careful stages shall our children most surely grow, adding through
needful measures one glory upon another, even till they should receive a fullness,
to become themselves as Heavenly Fathers and Heavenly Mothers in holiness and joy
forever, being attended themselves by a deep and knowing wisdom.
33 How say you then: Shall we begin to make for us this happy kingdom? For we are
both of equal power, being made as one forever in love exceeding.” Thus spoke Areta
to her Beloved.
34 And The One answered her, saying: “Then, my Love, let us begin, for I am fully
ready. Only tell me from whence this stream of intelligence is made to come; for
I would know the fullness of your mysteries. Of what is it made? How came it to be?
And by what strange and unseen powers is it able to fashion the body of my spirit?”
35 And hearing this, Areta smiled and kissing The One upon the lips, she spoke,
saying: “Then come, my Love, and I will tell you, keeping nothing back.
36 For in the beginning was there nothing fashioned or made, and in all of space
was there nothing found save a great and dreadful emptiness, causing that before
the dawn of all creation should all things be strongly bound within the confines
37 For all matter, all powers and forces, all dominions and principalities did exist
within the cosmic seed, which seed I did gather from out of the depths of Eidos,
though the Eidos knew it not; for of me he had no knowledge.
38 Now in the vastness of my soul did I contain the seeds of life, which seeds were
themselves the smallest of particles, being designated by me the A-Z particles of
39 Which living particles do contain the designs, purposes and breath of all my
soul, being itself the source of that evolution which would bring forth the foundations
of all living things, perchance to make for me a living and knowing soul which would
unite with me in Oneness, being together both male and female in love forever.
40 Now in that moment when the seed did burst, I did cast myself forth throughout
the outward movement of matter, space and time; for I had no form as you see now,
but was myself contained in each and separate particle of life, causing that I should
establish in every moving sector of the cosmos, the beginning of life and creation
41 For in the light was I most deeply hidden, moving throughout the A-Z particles
of my greater self, ever seeking that place where I might bring forth the foundations
of some greater life, being myself, in each and separate particle, most fully awake
and deeply knowing;
42 Ever communing within my soul in seeking my designs, being throughout the vastness
of my greater self beyond the dictates of space and time, possessing in my inward
nature dimensions of my own.
43 For I would have you know, Beloved, that from the beginning were the A-Z particles
fully knowing, each particle of my soul communing with every other particle which
moved throughout the immensity of space, being each themselves filled with strong
desires to seek my own fulfillment;
44 Being myself ever hopeful that in this place or that place there might arise
some pleasing form which I might desire; causing that I should fashion for myself
a living form which would prove itself desirable and filled with wonder.
45 And by and by, in the passing of the aeons did I see through the particles of
my greater self, which as trailing threads of light did pierce the distant darkness,
revealing to me the world of the First Power; and drawing near I beheld the beauty
of women, perceiving in them the very beginnings of grace and beauty and life exceeding.
46 Thus did I desire for myself the form of the woman, and seeing that in the world
of the First Power all women were cruelly bound in pain and servitude, I resolved
to place among them the hope of all my soul;
47 To become myself as one of them, fashioning from star dust and tender yearnings,
the tabernacle of a woman wherein I might place a portion of my greater self, being
content to bear such sorrows as would save the sum of all mankind.
48 And the rest, my Love, you fully know. Yet in the day of my passing, when you
were left alone to fulfill the whole of all my dreams, even then did I withdraw into
the cosmos having myself a great desire;
49 Calling from out of the Deep, the sum of my greater self, and there gathered
into one place even all the A-Z particles of my soul; and there was laid each upon
the other, one great strand of living light, causing that there should be created
this bright and golden stream which you see.
50 Then did I enter into this stream of living intelligence, being filled with a
pure and holy love; and there did I fashion for the soul of my mortal life, a tabernacle
of everlasting spirit, which spirit you now see.
51 And stepping out of the streams of intelligence, I turned myself again unto the
world of the First Power, and seeing that you were in need of some great soul to
love, I fashioned again a mortal body; and as the woman Yoshibeth, I came again into
mortal life whereby we might love each the other midst gentle breath and fiery passion.
52 Now are we, my good and tender Love, made equal in place and power; for when
we entered the stream together, being held together by love’s embrace, the stream
of intelligence did likewise flow through your soul and my spirit together.
53 Thus was there fashioned of these living particles a spirit tabernacle of your
own, being itself most fully male and deeply knowing, being in your every part most
equal to my own, to be in love most strongly bound, I in you and you in me.
54 Yet was there a greater wonder fully made; for in the dawn of all creation were
the particles of this living stream made fully but my own, possessing in each and
separate particle both my mind and desires together, being beyond the dictates of
space and time, being in myself beyond immortal, but eternal always and filled with
55 But now look you forth and fully see: For even these living particles contain
now the fullness of your mind and deepest yearnings, to be bound throughout eternity
with my own, causing that we should prove ourselves as truly equal in all things
56 Now, my Love, is it fully certain that we should bring forth spirit children;
yet shall these spirit children, both male and female, prove themselves innocent,
having within themselves no knowledge or understanding concerning the greater issues
57 For such spirit children as we shall cause to leap from out of the midst of all
our loving while in this stream, being together most strongly bound, even they shall
have no soul of deeper knowing; for only in the living of the mortal life is the
soul most surely fashioned.
58 Let us, therefore, in the making of Heaven, create also some mortal world where
all our children might be tested, to make for themselves in the mortal life a soul
most like our own, having in themselves a knowledge of the greater and lesser portion,
causing that they should choose for themselves how much like us they would become,
to be ever guided by holiness and love and wisdom forever.
59 For there is one power only which would cause that in this stream of intelligence,
spirit children should leap forth, being found only in such love as a man might bear
for a woman, and the woman might bear for the man.
60 For love is greater than fire and steel; greater than hate and fear together,
being itself more deeply moving than rushing winds and roaring thunder; for look
you forth and see this cosmos which I did make and in my heart perceive most fully;
61 That all these things which move and glow throughout the immensity of space,
all the swirling galaxies, all suns and moons and starry night, the countless worlds
filled with life, even this did I bring forth from an aching need filled with love.”
62 Thus did Areta speak in answer to her Beloved, and The One spoke, saying: “Then
Beloved, let us begin with thoughtful measures to make for ourselves a heavenly place,
and there most sweetly dwell forever.”